pretentious b****

I am guilty of being a pretentious b****!

I am soooooo f*ckin tired!!! I'm tired of being pretentiously happy all the time!!
I'm tired of being pretentiously content all the time!!!
and I'm freaking tired of being pretentiously polite all the time!!!

You.....of all people....
You should know that I'm tired...
You should know that I'm trying my best....
You should know that I'm desperately wanting you....
You should know that I'm not a freaking social butterfly 24/7!!!!!

It calms me down to be in social isolation......

All you other people......why is it soooo god damn hard for you to see through my eyes that I'm sad.....

My salvage has been taken away from me......

Or are you being pretentious too??
It scares me to think that way....I feel like I'm going to vomit now......

Go away all of you with your pathetic neverending problems....
I'm handling all of my pathetic problems by myself so why can't you???

It makes me feel good to imagine myself throwing a porelain doll to the wall and shattering it to pieces....

I'm guilty of being a pretentious b****!!!